I am 1 signature and 1 picture away from sending in my application.

Wahoo!!!

My application to go to Chicago Semester is finished! I still need about 5 signatures, a photo, and my transcript, but my part is done!!!

This is where the nervousness sets in...

God's faithfulness

It has been so evident lately that God is faithful. I've been really struggling lately with a lot of things and yet He has continued to show me that he loves me in various ways:

People:
Wow, where to begin?? People have come out of the woodworking in ways that I would have never thought.

• Words of encouragement at the exact moment I needed them from people that I don't usually hear from.
• Prayers for me that touch my heart because they are so insightful, even though the people don't know everything that's going on.
• And then there's hanging out with people spur of the moment at the exact moment that I needed something to do.

Music:
I love music with my whole heart. I think that words put to music are incredibly powerful. Let me share a song by Robbie Seay Band

• First of all, thanks for listening to our song,
  We hope this finds you driving in your car,
  Or wherever you are,
  Breathe out and breathe again,
  Know that life is hard,
  But it's worth the breathing.
  
  Listen to me now,
  For love, oh love,
  It's waiting for you just to say:
  Here come better days,
  And here come better days,
  Better days, and a better place I know.
  
  Secondly, I'm all messed up so royally,
  And I stumbled my way here,
  But wait, oh wait,
  Grace has found me,
  Shaken up my soul,
  Grace will follow,
  Wherever you will go,
  Listen to me now for grace, oh grace,
  Is calling for you just to say:
  
  Here come better days
  And here come better days,
  Better days, and a better place I know.
  
  Green grass,
  and I'm laying in the sunlight of you,
  And the wind is moving through the trees ushering you,
  And the better days you bring,
  the better places found,
  Feasting at your table I am overwhelmed,
  I lift my glass and drink to love that never gave up,
  Clouds pass fading into memories gone,
  And all I have to show for life is life and love and peace.
  What else could there be?
  
  Here come better days,
  And here come better days,
  Better days, and a better place I know...

If God is faithful in the little things like people and music, he can be faithful in the big things right? Like in my life? in my walk with him? in the worst days/nights of my life? Right?

I'm trusting so. Without it, I'd be lost.

I am so tired. Life is crazy now and I want it to stop.

"Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Black bird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free"

Why is life so hard?? Why do the people that we love hurt us the most? Why do we hurt them the most? Many times I wish that I didn't care, that I could just move on and leave the painful parts behind. But I can never actually do it, I can't leave.

I just want things to be ok. My wings are broken and I just want to fly.

'Cause you, you give me life
You give me hope
You're all I need.