Life is not at all what I expected it to be. At this point (14 credits away from graduation), I thought that I would have a general idea of what my career might be. I thought that perhaps, there might be some jobs that I would be interested in applying for.

Not so.

I feel so lost. Some people say it's normal. Others do in fact have a job lined up.

I want to do something big. I have considered finding an intentional community to live in. I have considered pursuing a Masters degree in who knows what. Something is moving on the inside and if I could just find the outlet, everything would be ok...

Oh and just to come public...I am 100% anti-war now. (that's just a hint of some of the "bigness" that's wanting to come out...)

I feel like I am constantly swimming upstream against the Christian community I am a part of...

I'm tired.