The Lion King and Men

I watched The Lion King the other day and Nala said something so profound about grown up Simba.

See, Simba was in denial that he was the real king. He didn't want to own up to his responsibilities and go back to Pride Rock to help his family.

Nala knew who he really was. She saw his true self, his strength. Even when he did not.

Her line was priceless "He's holding back, he's hiding. But what I can't decide. Why won't he be the king I know he is? The king I see inside?"

This is the story of Christian guys. So much potential, but they don't live up to it because they shy away.

Nala's question is the question of us females.

A) Whoever I am supposed to marry doesn't know what is coming. He is obviously settling right now.

B) I'm Digging a ditch where madness gives a bit
Digging a ditch where silence lives
Digging a ditch for when I’m through
Digging this ditch I’m digging for you

Where all these worries wear down on me will rise
Where all these habits pull heavy at my heart will die

Digging a ditch where madness gives a bit
Digging a ditch where silence lives
Where all these disappointments that grow angry out of me will rise
Will die, will die, will die

C) I will no longer try to prove myself worthy.

In order for my faith to be saved, I need to leave home.

I just have to laugh at my life right now.

God has been doing weird things in the lives of my friends and it's impacting me too.

The choices that I am being faced with are crazy. They are things that I never would have thought I would have to do. They are things that "Jennifer doesn't do", but here I am considering the possibilities.

Will I wimp out or will I do them?

Do I risk my heart? Do I put my heart out there?

Oh God be clear and give me peace.

I am so sick of caring about people.

I am sick of waiting on people to come into my life. I'm sick of waiting for a man.

I don't like that people have an effect on me and my emotions.
But at the same time, I don't want to change it.